#787 Big Feelings

November 10, 2022Scott Benner

Katy has a lot of big feelings.

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Scott Benner 0:00
Hello friends, and welcome to episode 787 of the Juicebox Podcast.

On today's show, we'll be speaking with Katie, who has a child with type one diabetes. And there are some big feelings in this episode, hence the title, big feelings. I almost went with Katie's big feelings. And then I thought, no, no big feelings. It's better, shorter. I like it. While you're listening, please remember that nothing you hear that Juicebox Podcast should be considered advice, medical or otherwise, always consult a physician before making any changes to your health care plan, or becoming bold with insulin? Do you live in the United States of America and have type one diabetes or are the caregiver of someone with type one? If you do, and you are then you should fill out the survey AT T one D exchange.org. Forward slash use box. This will take you fewer than 10 minutes help people with type one diabetes might help you. It's definitely going to help me t one D exchange.org. Forward slash juice box the survey takes 10 minutes to fill out. It's easy. The questions are simple. There are about diabetes, you can do it completely HIPAA compliant. Absolutely anonymous T one D exchange.org. Forward slash juicebox. Today's episode of The Juicebox Podcast is sponsored by the Contour Next One blood glucose meter. You can find out all about the Contour Next One and just buy it online if you want to at contour next one.com forward slash juicebox. Great website, all the websites for the for the what do they call sponsors are actually terrific. Tons of information. But this one's next level, there's so much there contour next.com forward slash juice box. Today's show is also sponsored by in pen from Medtronic diabetes, if you want some of the functionality that you've heard about with an insulin pump, but you don't want an insulin pump, you can get it with the in pen from Medtronic diabetes in pen today.com To get started. You may pay as little as $35 for an in pen. I'll tell you more about that during the chat.

Katy 2:26
This is my first time doing a podcast so lying to

Unknown Speaker 2:29
me. No, I'm just kidding.

Katy 2:32
Yeah, you've done like 500

Scott Benner 2:35
You know that the first time I made a podcast, I was recording with a guy who was an American Idol contestant to hell had type one diabetes. And I thought like, I mean, in my mind, I launched my podcast like American Idol was big back then. Yeah. So I started this podcast, I put it up online this little like placeholder episode, like called microphone test or something like that. And then I was getting ready to make my first episode when I when this kid popped up on American Idol. And I like took a swing of getting them on and actually did it. So the very first time I ever recorded the podcast, that's who I had the interview. So I was nervous. Yeah, but I'm not nervous now. Are you?

Katy 3:27
Um, I a little like coming into it, but I knew it was coming. So I am somewhat relaxed, actually. Which is kind of strange. But yeah, I think I just kind of went into my, my, I take yoga. So I think I went into my, like my yoga breathing and just kind of went into my happy place. My name is Katie. I was born and raised in California. I live in Northern California, the Bay Area. Let's see.

Scott Benner 4:00
I spelled wrong Katie.

Katy 4:03
k, T Y.

Scott Benner 4:06
Four for three days. I look at it on my calendar. And I'm like, let her say her name first in case there's some like, hippie pronunciation here. But you just Yeah, it's caddy. Just kidding. No, no, like, I'm waiting to find out. Sorry, you're the parent of

Katy 4:27
it's actually really funny because my whole life I've always gotten Kathy, Kathy Caitlin. Catherine. And I'm always like, it's Katie. Katie why? But yeah, I got that a lot in elementary school. Okay, so I am 36 years old and I have two children and and a husband. I live in Yorkville, California. My kids are Griffin. He's 10 years old and Jackson, six years old.

Scott Benner 5:01
are their names all spelled correctly?

Katy 5:04
So Griffin is GRI FFI en and Jackson, J x o Ed.

Scott Benner 5:12
Are you immune to my sarcasm? Or are you just very?

Katy 5:17
Well, I'm pretty sarcastic myself, Okay,

Scott Benner 5:19
well, you're hitting me back when I say, All right, well, then I'll be careful.

Katy 5:23
I was born, I was raised in a pretty sarcastic family.

Scott Benner 5:27
I like that a lot. Which one of your children has type one.

Katy 5:31
So my older son, Griffin, he has type one diabetes. And he also has celiac. And he has, he's got a lot going on. Also some anxiety that we've been dealing with as well. But I'll try to stay just on the type one for the most part. So he was diagnosed when he was three and a half years old. July 11 2015. I was, I was eight months pregnant with his brother Jackson. And we had actually just had the baby shower for Jackson. I think it was two weeks prior to the diagnosis. And what happened was Griffin was he was very healthy for the first three and a half years. Hardly ever even got a cold. You know, I remember being around other families and their kids would sniffle and have a runny nose and all of that. And I felt kind of, you know, sort of like, you feel sort of proud. Yeah, absolutely. You're just like, well, I'm, I must be doing something right. You know, I breastfed I did not have an epidural with him.

Scott Benner 6:59
I don't know, weak children who pick up colds.

Katy 7:03
I just, you know, it's interesting, because your perspective, it changes so much. But yeah, I felt really good about it. But you know, what's interesting as well is that I remember, like, probably a few months before his diagnosis, having this kind of just like, odd feeling that

Unknown Speaker 7:28
I remember thinking, God, he's so healthy. He's so you know, like, it's like, everything's to so good with him. So,

Katy 7:36
he just does so well. He's so strong. And, and I remember thinking in my mind, like God would if something happens, like you got some childhood illness or something. And I thought, oh, that's just my mind. You know, just put that somewhere else.

Scott Benner 7:52
Like that happened to you with any frequency or was that a one time event, it was

Katy 7:58
kind of a one time thought it and sort of put that aside and, but I also do have, I have anxiety myself, I also have PTSD. So I have some things going on, within myself. So I do tend to worry a lot. So that wasn't like totally out of the norm for me, but it was kind of odd like it. It's always stuck with me that I had that that sort of feeling. But then so moving forward. You know, everything was going relatively well with my second pregnancy. And you know, I'd gotten over the morning sickness that I went through that with both of my babies. And so, you know, we're in the second trimester and getting into the third and feeling good. Um, he got croup kind of out of nowhere. And so you know, that's in the respiratory so he was really having a hard time breathing. I, I woke up in the middle of the night to him kind of gasping for for a breath. And I ran into his room and I was able to, like kind of soothe him and calm him down while I talked to the nurse brought him to the doctors, they gave him medicine for that. I think it was an oral steroid, of some sort. But anyway, so we took care of that and he seemed to be getting better. But I would say within about a month, I noticed weight loss could not stop drinking water. Ira remember at one point catching him in the bathroom, drinking out of the sink, and then excessive wetting the bed like I mean to To the point where I would have to change a bed twice in one night. So it was in he's kind of he kind of had had that going on he, I mean, he was three years old. So it wasn't, like, really out of the ordinary to wet the bed. But this seemed to be, you know, this was like alarm, it was more of a red flag type.

Scott Benner 10:27
Right? What did you so what did you do at that point?

Katy 10:31
So I, I remember, just kind of like the dot started to, you know, or, you know, I was starting to sort of like, connect these dots, but I did not know anything about type one diabetes. Now, I know that it is in the realm of autoimmune diseases, which auto immune diseases do run in my family, really, but I did, yes. But I had no idea what I knew there was different kinds of diabetes. My sister had a friend that was diagnosed at 17, that got very sick. So I knew that he had, the more serious, in my mind, it was the more serious one. And even though they're both serious, and so I knew there was like, one that was a bit more treatable, and one that was just like, you know, that was the more like, whoa, Steel Magnolia, you know? I understand. So I was like, you know, I, yeah, so I wasn't even going there. Because I really knew nothing about diabetes, no one in my family has diabetes. And in my husband's family, his father had type two, but it wasn't really talked about much. So nobody ever talked about what the symptoms were. So we, I, sorry, I, you know, I'm talking to my husband. And I remember talking to family members and people, you know, around Griffin, and just saying, like, this is odd. I talked to my mom on the phone. And you know, I'm, I'm a little concerned. And this just seems really weird. Like, why is he you know, and also he was very, he was starting to get very, like irritable those last days before the diagnosis. He was like, just not himself. And I was like, losing my patience. I remember at one point, I had to stop and buy him new shorts at a store, because we had gone to the park. And he'd went through everything in the you know, there were standing urine in his car seat, like when I took the car seat out. So it was it was pretty overwhelming. And so I talked to my dad the night before he was diagnosed. And I remember saying, like, these things are all really odd. And my dad, you know, is trying to make me feel better. And everybody's trying to make me feel better. And they all know, I worry a lot. So everybody's like, it's okay. He's just, you know, he's, you know, you're about to have a new baby, you know, there's all these things happening, like, you know, whatever. So

Scott Benner 13:15
a bunch of stuff that doesn't really say why we would pay for themselves over and over again and drink out. Yeah. It makes you feel better in the moment.

Katy 13:26
Yeah, but I my gut inside, like something I knew something was off. So we go to the fair on Saturday, and we're going to try to make Griffin feel better. And because we had gone to bear the year before he had so much fun. So we're like, this is going to be so fun. We bring him to the fair, we figured that'll cheer him up, we get an ice cream. And you know, oh my god, hindsight, I'm not a good, not a good call. We're trying to make him feel better. And he just was extremely lethargic. Like, couldn't even get out of the stroller. His eyes were all red underneath. He was looking very, he just was not looking good. I mean, now I look back on the photos and stuff. And it's, you know, it's hard to look at them because I can see how sick he was. But at the time, you know, I've got a big baby bump. And I've got a million things on my mind. And but that is kind of running in the back of my mind is like, Huh, what are these in? I'm trying to put the thing, you know, put the whatever together. And so I finally just, you know, I said mom, I think maybe because my my mother was there with us. I said I think maybe this is Do you think maybe it's a kidney infection or a bladder infection? I don't know. You know what it could be? Yeah. And my mom's like, I don't know. And I said, I'm gonna call the vice nurse right now. Like because I just Yeah, so I call the vice nurse standing in the middle of the fair. And I just, you know, I start saying the symptom gyms and the advice nurse. Their first response, you know, was, okay, well, let's Okay, these symptoms you have let's, let's get him in here tomorrow. So this is on a Saturday, he said, let's get him in here on Sunday at 11 o'clock. Let's get him in your, let's run some tests. And that's okay, that does that sound good. And I just right before we hung up, I go, I want to talk to an ER, Doctor, I want it please connect me to the emergency room department. I want to talk to someone else. So we got a an ER doctor on the line, and I was able to explain the symptoms. And that person, say, you know, that saved my son's life. He immediately said, Ma'am, we need you to get in the car. Take off, you know, like, just you'd need to get in a car right now. Have someone else drive if you need to. You need to get your son to an emergency room immediately. If he starts vomiting in the car, do this, this and this, you know, basically just like you gotta go now right? And I all he said was it sounds like it could be his blood sugar. And I don't know anything about that. So I my first instinct was the movie Steel Magnolias where she's shoving the straw in Julia Roberts mouth. So I'm thinking oh my gosh, does he need sugar? Is he is he is this low blood sugar? That's how little I know. Oh, really? Yeah. So I'm like, giving him more candy on the way to the hospital. And he's literally like going in and out of it. And and I'm like, have the gummy bear have the gummy bear? Because I that's this is what that's why I'm doing this podcast because I knew so little and because so many people know so little. And you know if I can at least like reach one person, then I'm, I'm happy with that.

Scott Benner 17:06
Katy. I wish. I wish I was there at that moment. Because what I would have said to you was Do you remember when? When Julia Roberts that little movie called Pretty Woman? I would have said to you do you really think that's how most hookers lives go? And she would have said No, probably not. I would have said Yeah. Right. Because movies are fake. And yeah. Right. And they're, and maybe we should listen to them by now. Oh, my God. So I have a ton of questions can can we wait a second? Let's let's put a pin in the car. I'm gonna draw a picture of a car and a candy wrapper so I know where we're at. And, and I want to go back and ask a number of different questions. So first other autoimmune issues in your extended family.

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Katy 22:51
Yes, my mom has rheumatoid arthritis. diagnosed, diagnosed I think late 30s, early 40s. But it didn't really kick in until like her 50s. And then I have a sibling that has an autoimmune condition as well. I would say it but I don't know. She's comfortable with me saying it. So it's just kind of like, Yeah, but so yeah, um, she's got an autoimmune condition. My mom has an auto immune condition. And then my grandmother has hypothyroidism. And so does my aunt. And I believe my great grandmother had Ra's. Well. And, you know, I don't I don't know anything on my dad's side. My dad was adopted. So I don't know his blood, like the blood history with him. My dad doesn't have anything autoimmune. So I'm thinking it comes more from my mom's side. And more from my side, you know, whatever.

Scott Benner 24:07
Right. Yeah. All right, twice. Yeah, your sisters that we're not going to say and to hide. Yeah, right. So do you have anything besides the anxiety?

Katy 24:17
Not that I know of. Yeah, not that I know of, but just really? Yeah, a lot of anxiety, a lot of anxiety. I was in a car accident when I was in high school, and I think that sparked up PTSD and anxiety. And then I went on that whole journey.

Scott Benner 24:36
I asked you prior to the car accident, did you ever feel that way?

Katy 24:40
No, not really, how are you very, I was 15.

Scott Benner 24:45
Okay. And so when you say I don't know anything about PTSD, but is that a diagnosable thing? Is that something that a therapist has said, Do you have PTSD? Oh, yes. Yeah, yes. And yeah. And how does that how does that continue to impact Your Life.

Katy 25:01
Um, it impacts that all the time triggers, there's certain things that just can trigger you smell a song. I mean, it could be, it could be anything, really. So it's like learning to identify what the triggers are, and how to how to better react to the situations, which, you know, it's hard because over the years, other things have happened like Griffin's diagnosis that definitely piled right think there was some serious PTSD after that, Oh, absolutely. Because, you know, being pregnant and the hormones and everything, and then to already have an underlying anxiety. And then have, you know, this, you know, I mean, when it happened, and we got to the ER, and, you know, he goes, we have a problem, a big problem. Your son's diabetic, I just remember the whole freak, the whole world just crashed down in that moment, and everything just started going in slow motion. And then there was doctors everywhere, and people everywhere. You know, he had a really high blood sugar, it was nine 960

Scott Benner 26:17
Do you manage your anxiety with any medication or other things?

Katy 26:23
So I do take medication, I've, I've kind of been on and off of it throughout my 20s and 30s. I didn't take any medication when I was pregnant with my children, I, you know, wanted to be all natural during that time. And, and I've tried to, you know, I've tried to I've tried not taking medication, I've kind of done both, but it's, uh, yeah, you know, it's really about finding like the right medication that is, you know, that you, you should or shouldn't be taking, and working with the right, Doctor and psychiatrist and therapist. And that was, you know, that's a journey that took a long time to, to kind of figure out and, but I work with some really amazing people. And I think that that, that helps a lot.

Scott Benner 27:16
Excellent. Excellent. Now, you said you thought that Griffin had anxiety as well, when did that pop up? For him?

Katy 27:26
Um, I have noticed it. Really, more. So in the past, I would say four years. So four years ago, my husband's father passed away of a heart attack, it was sudden it was fast. And Griffin was there when my husband got the news. And that was quite traumatic. You know, seeing your dad get that news on the phone. And then the next year, our beautiful dog that we've had for 10 and a half years, Marley, Australian Shepherd, she got a she, she had an issue with their ACL, we bring her to the vet, the vet says she's got cancer everywhere. And within two weeks, she was she passed away. And she was like the the dog that we took everywhere. So that was like the heart and soul of our family and, and my father in law. So those two sudden losses were also really big. And then his school closed, and then the pandemic happen and California wildfires, just all this stuff. And I think all of that has definitely contributed a lot to kicking into anxiety. So I see it because I have it I think I'm able to see more. In Him

Scott Benner 28:54
in present day, how does that impact them day to day? When you say you see it? What do you say?

Katy 29:00
Um, well, he we're working with a neurologist right now at UCSF because he's kind of developed a bit of a tic. So he has little tics with his hands. And he's a brilliant, brilliant artist. He's been making art since he could literally pick up a cran or start making little sculptures and things and he just loves to do art. It's frustrating for him because when he does art he takes a lot and I think I you know I think it's part of it's like that he's hyper focused. And he gets frustrated. He's like, Mom, why do I have to tick so much when I when I'm doing this? But yeah, we the way the neurologist is approaching it is to try to Start with the anxiety and go from there because really at the root, typically is anxiety. So, you know, we're trying to go from there. So she hasn't given him a formal diagnosis, but she's seen it and so she's, you know, seen it in person. And she, you know, she agrees that it does, it seems like it very well could be a tic disorder. But until we really like treat the anxiety more, you know, it could be something that'll get better as he gets older.

Scott Benner 30:41
Can I ask you if you ask him about it? Like, does he have like a conscious idea that he feels anxious?

Unknown Speaker 30:50
Um,

Katy 30:53
yeah. He, he has Yes, he is told me he has anxiety. He

Scott Benner 30:59
worries about things or feels pressure pressure about stuff. Okay. All right. I understand. Okay, well, what a fun detour. Katie. Now let's

Katy 31:11
everything. Everything was like going really well to like, be right before he was diagnosed. It was like, we were like, on the upswing. It was like,

Scott Benner 31:21
let me let me tell you that. Just a couple of weeks before Arden was diagnosed. We had just had this big birthday party for Arden. We had bought a house in the last two years. Our son was awesome. Our son was going away to you know, kindergarten. And baby, we had enough money to rent a pony for Arden's party to walk around in the backyard. We got I love it. Like we felt like we were doing something, you know, and, and I had the same feelings as you did, you know, like everything was just exactly the way I expected it to be and was moving in exactly the direction I had intended to Kelly's Yeah, like full steam ahead. Yeah. And then I was just like, whoa, wait a minute. And then all this just happened? It's, uh, it is definitely shocking, that that's for certain. So you're in the hospital. He's diagnosed obviously. He's in DKA. I'm guessing. And, and then it's a Jesus three and a half years ago, right. So,

Katy 32:27
um, so Well, he was three and a half,

Scott Benner 32:30
six, six and a half years ago, excuse me seven years this July. Right? And so you leave with some reasonable gear, I imagine.

Katy 32:39
So we go to the hospital, were there for five days. And, you know, learning how to take care of our son. There's people coming in and out of the hospital room all day. Were you in the hospital for more than a day with our five, five days? Yeah. Yeah, we had Yeah, it was five days Children's Hospital. And, by the way, Oakland Children's Hospital was amazing. I mean, the nurses in there. Like, they were like angels. But you know how it is in in the children's hospital, you got people coming in and out of that room all day long. So you're exhausted. You're not sleeping, and you know, you're on your phone googling what this is? What is this? You know, that, you know, the doctors are telling you. You know, I remember when they right before they transferred him over to the Oakland Children's Hospital. They said we're going to have to first they were going to take them on an air flight. They were going to like fly them over. But then they were able to stabilize them enough that they go, Okay, we think we can just bring him in the ambulance. I'm like, Oh, you think you know, you know, and the doctor in the ER is going well, we worry about things like brain swelling, and you know, and I'm just your head is spinning. I mean, at least I know, for me, it was my husband went into kind of the gotta fix it mode, you know, right off the bat, and I went into the just heartbroken mode pretty quickly. Um, so I would say it like sort of like hit me first. And it kind of like hit him later.

Scott Benner 34:24
what point did you think I had this thought earlier? Like, I thought something because I'm just trying to mix your anxiety with the thought earlier than something everything was going to Well, which by the way, I do think is is that OCD or there's something about the expect?

Katy 34:45
You don't? Well, I It's funny, so I I've always been under condition that I have OCD, but I'm actually working with a trauma therapist and we're are uncovering the whole PTSD thing. And she basically is explaining it to me that OCD, anxiety, depression, like all these things can kind of fall under the umbrella of PTSD. So, you know, she's like, I'm not fully convinced that you are 100% Habits B, although, I don't know, because I'm pretty sure my grandmother will actually I mean, let's be honest. My grandmother, she's undiagnosed. I think she's also undiagnosed. Some other mental illness as well, like maybe bipolar or borderline personality. I don't know exactly. She never got care. But she had. She did things that were not. She did things that were like textbook. OCD. Yeah. So

Scott Benner 35:50
in OCD, there's an i My understanding of it's going to be limited, but there's this magical thinking concept, that your thoughts make things happen. And so that's why I was wondering if you're, you're laughing Am I Am I getting to something now?

Katy 36:08
No, no, yeah, it's, that's, you're right on.

Scott Benner 36:10
Okay. All right. So then the way it then burdens people is that they tried to have these, these good thoughts, like thinking the right things, the right things happen. I was just wondering if you know, because you would have an idea prior when your kids were little and everything when Griffin was little, and everything was going so well. And you actually thought this is going so well. Something bad's gonna happen. When something bad happened. Did you think that you made it happen with your thoughts? No, good. All right.

Katy 36:41
I was able to like differentiate. Luckily, I started going to I put my button therapy in my 20s. Because I realized, I realized after I had my first child and went through some postpartum anxiety, so I know, it's like, there's postpartum depression. But there's also something called postpartum anxiety. People don't talk about it as much. But so it's really easy for everyone to go, Oh, she added postpartum depression, it's, you know, I was not thinking about harming my children, any of that. And there's nothing wrong with postpartum depression. It's very serious. Yeah. But that's that wasn't it, I was more like, I was highly anxious all day, every day, like so worried I was gonna just like, I was gonna mess this up somehow this perfect porcelain, you know, little angel, that I was going to somehow screw this up. So, you know, that's when I really went in and got the, the anxiety diagnosis, panic disorder, like, because I was I was experiencing like, full blown panic attacks at that point. So I went in and got got support, which I'm really grateful that I knew enough to know. I don't want to, I think part of it was seeing my grandmother, how

Scott Benner 38:07
I'm dying to know what your grandmother did. I figured she shot like, a, like, a porno in the mall or something like that. When she was

Katy 38:13
no, she's hot. So she's my mom's from Michigan. My grandmother is extremely, like highly religious, but to the point where it's not. It's definitely not normal. She's like, Catholicism is everything. And like, she would write us letters when we were little. And, you know, tell us we needed to be nuns and priests and, you know, and then when, when we became of age, you know, where we were, you know, dating and getting married. And, you know, she would send letters, you know, telling us that we need to be, you know, you must wait for marriage and you must do this and you must do that just very inappropriate grandmother talk

Scott Benner 38:54
that's kind of her magical thinking, right? She that she thinks the universe has rules. And if she doesn't follow them Yeah, she'll be exactly it will be judged poorly. And part of that following it is making sure that everyone she has sway over gets told what she knows is true. Yes. Where she'll be judged for not telling you I get the whole thing. Okay, I got Yeah.

Katy 39:16
Yeah, she's worried she's gonna go to hell,

Scott Benner 39:19
your grandmother, your grandmother's way of being was so off putting to you that you put yourself into therapy because you're like, I'm really is that well,

Katy 39:31
I think I just saw, like, how unwrapped like just just how abnormal her behavior was, and that, you know, she would write excessive letters to my mom and to all of us and just always pushing religion and

Scott Benner 39:48
for clarity, you're not just talking about like, she's religious or believes very firmly. You're talking about something that that seemed over and above and oh wait,

Katy 39:57
we are in bye bye. I know people that are very religious and they'll make you feel. Okay. Yeah, no, this was this was on a level where the red flag came out. You know, as a child, I remember thinking, she's a bit different. You know? She's a little different. Yeah, I had an outdoor wedding. And like, my grandmother wrote me countless letters telling me that it was an abomination. You know, just to be outside and married. Yeah, because it wasn't in the church. It makes sense to me.

Scott Benner 40:32
When you were little your mom let these letters get to you.

Katy 40:36
Unfortunately, yeah. I wouldn't. I don't think I know. I know. Right? Right. Yeah. Um, you live in you learn, you know, and I don't blame my mom. My mom is she's amazing. And, you know, it couldn't have been easy. Having having a controlling mother like that. Right?

Scott Benner 40:55
Right. Yeah. This is, may I say, I, this phrase means so much to me anymore. I'm just gonna write down. I've been it's just 3443 First time Scott says this is quite a show.

Katy 41:16
Oh, my goodness. No, don't be fooled though. Like I have I had so many wonderful things in my life.

Scott Benner 41:21
We'll get to them. But first, how did you get that husband American you? Did you keep all this a secret or it was?

Katy 41:28
Well, he definitely has his he

Scott Benner 41:33
found a puppy with one weird eye too. And you were like, hold on a second. he'll accept one crap.

Katy 41:41
He comes from He comes from a different upbringing, where nobody talks about things, it's more quiet. Things are under the surface. And he definitely there's definitely mental illness in his family as well. So and very much like some of some, some of them undiagnosed. You know, I wish they were diagnosed. But yeah, so there's definitely stuff skeletons in that closet too. I'm

Scott Benner 42:17
so happy I started a podcast, this is like, talking to you is gonna be the best part of my day. Because I just think that, you know, you talked about his family, nothing gets said, etc. In your family way too much. Oh, yeah. But in my family, specifically Kelly's quieter and more to herself, because she grew up sort of Catholic and like, we'll just, you know, pretend things are okay. And I'm obvious. I think this should be obvious to people listening. I'm excessively happy to talk about anything constantly.

Katy 42:50
I just think yeah, like, let's, let's put it all on the table.

Scott Benner 42:53
Yeah, let's just keep pushing out till there's nothing to hide. And then we'll see what happens. Right. You know, I mean,

Katy 43:00
well, yeah. I think when you're around, like I know, when I'm around my husband's family. You know, there's been a lot of times where it's just, it's so quiet. It's like a nice, like, you could hear like a pin drop on the ground. And I just want to, I just want to go hey, can we all just like, let's get the elephant out of the room. Like, you know, this person doesn't like that person. And that person doesn't you know, it's just like, come on, like, I don't know, I just have gotten to a point where I just I'm just spread I want to address things in my life. I don't I don't want to skirt around. The obvious.

Scott Benner 43:45
So wasted time is a pet peeve of mine. I don't like wasting time. It makes me right, like really upset. And it just I know I look at myself in the mirror. If there's no way I'm one of those people who's going to make it to 87 you don't I mean, like I need to live right? So I don't like wasting time. I don't like wasting other people's time. I don't like other people wasting my time. But more importantly, if you want to know what makes me mental, it's when you know something. And I know something. I know that you know it and you know that I know it and yet we pretend that nobody's aware of it. That makes me want to just strangle somebody. So

Katy 44:26
I Yeah, it's and that's one I really struggle with. With Yeah, just certain people in my life.

Scott Benner 44:35
Are you paying your water bill while we're doing this? What are you doing over there? Oh, sorry.

Katy 44:39
I was like stalking. I was like, you know, when you take papers and you like you make them all like in what? Never mind?

Scott Benner 44:44
No, no, I don't Katie because I don't have whatever you have. So I'm not sure what that is. It's a stack. Your bet your desk looks better than mine. Yeah, yeah. I bet yours is nice and clean compared to Mind

This thing's not even, it's not even helping you keep your desk clean. What a waste. Worse kind of anxiety at least put it like stick it on the house, you know what I mean? Or something? Wouldn't it be great feeling through a tunnel right now? Okay. And, and stacking paper. So. Alright, so So Griffin's diagnosed. And, you know, let's talk about diabetes for a little bit, just you know, because these podcasts and maybe somebody's interested. How did you find management of this thing? When you had this anxiety going? Was it and a new baby, right?

Katy 45:45
Yes. So I'm sorry, his Dexcom keeps keeps alerting me my husband's.

Scott Benner 45:52
Do you see? Or do we need to yell at him?

Katy 45:56
Yeah, no, no, no, he's Yeah, I asked him to make sure to to be in contact with the school nurse. Um, so

Scott Benner 46:07
are you able to look at it knowing that your husband is looking at it? Or is that too much?

Katy 46:12
Typically know, like, I typically I want to look at it, but I saw it before. And like, I know that he's due paying attention to it. So I know it probably he's probably already had his correction, but it probably just hasn't come down. All the way

Scott Benner 46:26
you're now making, you know, making me think that I haven't seen artists blood sugar in hours. And you You made me want to go look. So open here. 111 is a little weird drop. And now it's, I'm gonna guess she ate something? She did? I don't know what but she had a little something. Okay. Yeah, I just I recognized that I hadn't seen art and sculpture in a very long time, just not what you said that. And so for me, not that this might break through your thing. But I just set the alarms at places where I know it won't get too out of hand before alarm. And that way, if I don't hear the alarm, I know we're in that range. And that keeps me from thinking about it. But

Katy 47:10
right. Yeah, that's a really good idea.

Scott Benner 47:12
Yeah. So just if it's, like, my phone's at 120 and 70. And I don't hear a beep. I never, I never think about diabetes. I just let it I let it ride in there somewhere between 70 and 120. I mean, you have to be able to do that first, obviously. But the idea the idea there is the idea there is that if your alarms at 180, or 200, you're always wondering if you're on your way to 180 or 200. Instead of just you know, anyway, yeah, no, that totally makes sense. Yeah, if it works, feel free to use it.

Katy 47:52
I've gotten, I've gotten a lot of great information from listening to, to your episodes, I haven't listened to all of them. But I listened to quite a few of them. And it has helped a lot.

Scott Benner 48:06
I'm very glad I always I used to worry in the beginning because there was this kind of section of vocal people online who would say that you can't talk about doing something and talk about how it's going well, because for people who it is not going well for you'll make them feel badly. But I never believed that. I always thought that that modeling was important. And so and so I'm glad to hear that you've enjoyed it. That's excellent.

Katy 48:32
No, yeah, absolutely. So when we got, you know, we get home from the hospital, and they give us these giant bags of supplies, and we leave the hospital. And I was definitely in a really tough place at that time. I just remember, like, the sky look darker, everything was just like the world, just our whole world looked different. Everything was flipped upside down. You know, and, like, I remember being in the hospital, and they're going okay, like, so you're gonna have to do your first shot today. You know, and it's like, first of how many 1000 It's, oh, because I tend to be you know, I was I would kind of look at the big picture. And I'm like, once I started to learn about what this disease is, and what the, you know, the the prognosis, and just all of it, like the complications that can happen, everything. I really just was, you know, I was in a state of just complete anxiety. And I remember just being like, oh my gosh, like, is he going to have complications at a time? You know? What's gonna happen, you know, and I'm thinking 20 years down the road. I'm thinking five years down the road. I'm thinking, you know, all of that my husband's more of the, you know, he's thinking like, let's just get through today. Hmm, which I admire that about him.

Scott Benner 50:03
I have a question for you. Or your artistic person.

Katy 50:08
Um, I, I am a bit. I tend to be drawn to artistic people. My husband is artistic. My son is an artist, right? So do you

Scott Benner 50:19
want to know I asked? Why? Because you are inclined to write a story about everything. Like in your mind. If I'm so far, by the way, I've known you for 44 minutes and 11 seconds, so I can Yeah, 100% wrong. And I have no medical or mental health training whatsoever. I just have a podcast, but it's, I do recognize a little bit of myself in you, which is it really if I gave over to my bigger flower, you're more flowery? You know, we're melancholy thoughts. I can go in those directions if I want to. And but I know I know how to stop myself from going in those directions. But, but it seems that when these things happen around you, you're kind of like, vortexed sucked into them. Like this, you know, like the you the way you describe the car accident, the way you describe being in the hospital room. You know, it wasn't like, it's almost like you're playing some movie, if that makes sense. Or you see it that way. I guess one or the other. I'm not I'm not certain so far. I am only 40. I'm trying to get to

Katy 51:32
yes. And no, I You're right on. Yeah. Right on

Scott Benner 51:36
i I've told this story on the podcast before, so I'll tell it really quickly. I was, I don't know, eight, nine years old, walking to school one day. And I had recently heard that if you step on the crack, you will break your mother's back. Now this this had been bandied about between the children.

Katy 51:53
And I remember hearing that too, on my way home from school. Yes, yes.

Scott Benner 51:57
So I'm walking to school one day. And then of course, if you've ever seen a sidewalk, there's a crack in the sidewalk about every four or five feet. And then I realized that I, I saw myself I'm like, I'm now not stepping on the crack. And I did think, well, that's silly, this isn't real. And the more I walked, the more I avoided it. And I stopped myself. And I was like, I am not giving into this crap, whatever this is. And then I purposefully stepped on all the cracks, and then came home, my mom's back was intact. And I never thought about it again. But I felt it in that moment. Like, I could give over to this little bit of weirdness and fall and fall into it like a warm bath. And instead, I just kind of decided to go the other way. Do you ever feel it coming on? When you're,

Katy 52:52
that's kind of that's definitely something that you know, that's that's a journey in my life that is is constantly, you know, trying to target when those things are coming on. And, but it's hard, you know, at times you're so wrapped up in the way you feel that it's hard to always see the storm ahead, I guess you would say so you know, sometimes you kind of feel like you're navigating blindfolded a bit but but I do through going to therapy and through kind of like working on myself. I definitely feel like I have more of the tools to recognize things before they happen or recognize things after they happen and look back and go okay, that's how that happens. You know,

Scott Benner 53:44
is it as if you have too many feelings?

Katy 53:48
Probably I remember when I was when I'm a march baby. So I'm a Pisces, which tend to be on the more like, sense. I don't know if you'd say I don't like the word sensitive because it's I feel like it's saying that I'm like, Oh, she's

Scott Benner 54:08
people using the word because you don't think

Katy 54:16
Well, I just okay, here's why.

Scott Benner 54:19
You're gonna need to give me a second that was amazing. You're like I am sensitive to when people call me sensitive because I am not sensitive.

Katy 54:31
Like I kind of Yeah, I know you're kind of right. That kind of Yeah, I know. I first sure like always had my feelings big heart like I remember when I was little my mom just saying you have really big feelings. And I remember I don't remember like, I would just remember how that felt when she said that. So yeah, I've always been like, I would say definitely like super in touch with my feelings. How

Scott Benner 54:56
did you feel when she said that?

Katy 55:00
It almost kind of felt like a compliment to me. So when my mom said that, and she said, it looks like there's a light bulb in your head. Because I have super blonde hair. So I don't know, I felt like it was a compliment. Like you. You feel things? I would really, really? Yeah, I

Scott Benner 55:16
would take it that way as well. I just, I don't know why. I there's a throttle or a limiter on me, like, I know, I know, when I'm like, Oh, God, like this is going too far the other way. And I can put a stop to it pretty

Katy 55:28
quick. That's because you're super lucky.

Scott Benner 55:32
I imagine that really is all it is. Is there times people come to me and they're like, how did you do that episode with this person telling this story or that story? And I'm like, Well, I don't know. Like, I mean, they're right there. They're okay. And even if they aren't, they want to share this. It's, you know, it's there. I'm respecting their, their desire to share the story. Like it just seems like somebody needs to be there to, you know, Shepherd it through to the end. And it is sad sometimes, but I don't know. Like, there is an ability to be dispassionate, but not Yeah, you know, I could go either way. I don't think I could get so dispassionate that I didn't care. But I could care so much that I wouldn't be able to. I could lose myself, I guess if I if I totally allowed myself to anyway, I'm sorry. This is

Katy 56:15
no for sure. Interesting. Um, so yeah, I Yeah, I'm definitely, I guess you could qualify as sensitive. But as far as like strength, I feel like I'm pretty, pretty strong. I've been through some really low lows. And I've been to had some really high highs. So you know, I've been where I feel like I'm drowning. And that's when we came home from the hospital. That's what I remember telling my mom. Because I was, I was very depressed, and just trying to get through our to our, you know, we're writing all the food, and we're weighing stuff, and we're doing and really just living hour to hour, and I still had the baby, I was, you know, 30 weeks pregnant. And I wasn't sleeping, I was just worried sick, big dark circles under my eyes. I didn't have the best support around me. My husband and my mother were like my lifeline. And although some other family members, they definitely had good intentions. And I, you know, I appreciate all the good intentions that people had. But there was definitely certain family members that were not helpful at all. And kind of were the exact opposite. And were very judgmental, and very, you know, just when are you going to snap out of this? Are you going to snap? Yeah, yeah. When are you going to snap out of it? Oh, and then then I found a my mom, you know, I'm talking to my mom, I go, I think I need to find a support group or I need to find someone to talk to I, I said, I just want to talk to another parent that knows how this feels. And so I found a support group, where I live by really pushing the doctors and just like I had to self advocate, advocate advocate. I can't, like stress that enough to people. If you feel like something's not right with your loved one or with yourself, advocate like you have to because no one else is going to do it for you. Yeah. So I was lucky enough to find this amazing group of families. That all had kids with type one diabetes, whether they were my son's age or now in college. All of these parents. It just meeting them changed my life that I remember one of the moms. I talked to her on the phone. This is probably two weeks after his diagnosis. And she goes, Do you want to just come over and have coffee and meet with some of us moms, like no judgment just come over. We know you're in a really hard place right now. I went over that day. And we sat at a table and just all told our story and passed around the Kleenex box and they literally came into my life like angels like it made me believe in angels. One of the moms brought flowers she had picked from her garden and handed them to me the another mom had like baked muffins. It was just I was overwhelmed with with the love that I was getting because I was really in such a deep state of depression and these people around me See that we're not being helpful. We're actually making it worse. So meeting those people and getting into a support group, it literally like I mean, it quite literally changed my life,

Scott Benner 1:00:12
I think, pulled me out. I'm glad I think empathy from a person who actually has your perspective is so much more enveloping than even just, you know, empathy from a well meaning person.

Katy 1:00:25
Yeah, I mean, you know, there is a family member, that, you know, just would have things to say like, you know, when, when are you gonna snap out of it? Have you met your new? I come back from the support group meeting? Have you met your new best friends now? At one point, I'm sitting outside on my patio, just, I'm in tears talking to my dad, like, how am I going to do this, I, you know, I'm just so overwhelmed. I'm scared, like, what's going to happen to him, you know, blah, blah, blah. And, you know, in this family member is, is inside, just, like rolling their eyes at me. And my mom actually, like, caught it happening. And my mom was like, This person needs to not be around you right now. So it was just, it was honestly, it was really challenging, dealing with the component of people in our family with their own mental illnesses, that they're probably not taking care of that were, it was it actually aggravated my journey and my, my, like, kind of wellness in the situation. And when that happens, you really need to be able to be strong, and be there and present for your child. And it's incredibly hard to do that, when you have people around you that are not well themselves, were you

Scott Benner 1:02:02
able to put distance between them. And you.

Katy 1:02:05
I had to start doing that. So my husband and I, you know, really started to back off and, you know, be we started to be because once I, you know, would talk to therapy, you know, there they would be saying, you know, you got exactly distance like you can't, if someone is making you, you know, like they're saying these kinds of things to you. Like that's not okay. Like, you need to not have that around you. Because that's yeah, and they're like, don't apologize for it. Don't feel bad, because that's me. I'm a chronic apologize for. So I'm actually I want to, I want to bring people together.

Scott Benner 1:02:43
Katie, we talked about that before we started talking that you said I'm a chronic apologize, you've only done it once in 56 minutes. Wow. Good job. I thought oh, she's gonna do it a bunch. Here's what I thought if I'm being honest, you'll do a whole bunch. I could teach you about it later, but then you didn't do it. So. And I know teasing someone who has anxiety about their desire to apologize all the time, it's probably not correct. But we're having a fun conversation, I actually have to tell you, as you're talking and in other episodes, I'm really proud of the way that the podcast handles people's really serious problems. You know, I think that if you came on here and started talking about all the things that had gone wrong, or are currently going wrong, or that you're struggling with etc, and that it was just a funeral dirge, and I was just like, oh, my gosh, that's horrible. Okay, you know, like, and I don't know, it would be, it would be unlistenable. And no one would be able to learn anything about it. So, right. I just I don't know. I love it. I love that you're touching that paper. Still. I'm dying to know what you're doing over there.

Katy 1:03:50
Oh, my God, I'm so sorry. Okay, yeah, that's totally like a, maybe I have my own tip. I'm, I'm so used to holding like, I have this planner. And then I always have to write everything down because my memory is so shot. So I write everything down. I'm like, I got to write down. You know, Okay, I gotta do this. I gotta do that. I'm gonna Okay, take the laundry out. Like, whatever. It's all written down for me.

Scott Benner 1:04:17
Katie, I think you're a lot of fun. I think I'd like to date you for six months. That'd be enough. But oh my god, I think six months we'd have a great time done this enough. Well, what are you know, what are what are your moving forward plans like and do those plans ever worked out? Are you constantly in a state of working on something or do you have goals? How does that all look?

Katy 1:04:51
Absolutely. Um, so after that all happen, and I found the support group that was incredibly helpful. I really started finding the resources I needed and found out about the diabetes Youth Foundation. We took our son in 2017, we took them to bare skin Meadows for a week, which is really amazing. diabetes camp here in California. So we did that. And that was like a total game changer. Just meeting all those families. And I mean, it's like, for one week, you go into a world where you're, you're like everyone else, you know, and there's like an insulin line in the morning. And there's endocrinologist and nurses, and it's really awesome.

Scott Benner 1:05:42
This happens. would Jesus be okay with it not happening in a church? I think Jesus would definitely ask your grandmother.

Katy 1:05:52
Yeah. And you know, the thing about that religion thing that's it's always kind of boggled my mind about that is that my grandmother thinks that if you don't go into church, you're not religious. And I've tried to argue my point with her a long time ago, but I stopped. I realized a long time ago, there was no point. But I tried, you know, just saying, Hey, Grandma, like, for me, like, when I'm hiking. Like, that's my religion, when I'm listening to my favorite music when I'm like, I pray all the time. You do not have to go inside of the building, to be spiritual and to to have faith. You know, you can have faith in an elevator. You can, whatever. So that's what I've learned.

Scott Benner 1:06:38
I'm old Aerosmith song, isn't it? Faith and elevator?

Katy 1:06:42
I don't know. I'm sure there's some cheesy lines that honor His love and an elevator I was I feel like I should write a book with like, just quotes, like, just super cheesy quotes.

Scott Benner 1:06:52
I prefer if you made a movie about your grandmother, but

Katy 1:06:58
oh my god, my grandmother used to drive Raizy like, when we would go to Michigan, she would take us to garage sales, because she loves garage sales. And I just remember being in the back of the car and like holding on to the doors so tight because she would drive like erratic kind of, you know,

Scott Benner 1:07:15
we don't have to pay attention when God's on your side. He does it all for it. Yeah. Right there. Yeah. I love you. I would I would sit and I would watch video of your grandmother writing those letters.

Katy 1:07:27
As long as I would. I mean, she's she's pretty entertaining. Yeah,

Scott Benner 1:07:31
as long as the words that she was putting them down, I'd be endlessly fascinated with those letters. Alright, so you see you I'm sorry. You met people. I'm sorry. I'm this is my fault. Now. You, you met people. You head off to the diabetes foundation went away for a little bit found that kind of centering. How and

Katy 1:07:50
then I and then I tapped down a week later. So that was halftones in Yosemite and Burson? Yeah, it's stunning, isn't it? I remember the first time I saw it, I was like, I'm gonna hike up to the top of that thing. And I did. And it was amazing. I did it with my sister. And it was just really awesome to like, show myself that I could do that. And it was really cool to see like people from all different parts of walks of life, like people in their 70s There was a guy that had his, like, 11 year old son with him there was, it was just kind of, like, just so many different walks of life doing that. But yeah, that was that those two weeks were just like, such a healing experience. And then, you know, just I really started to get a lot better and feel a lot better. And, you know, just knowing what my boundaries were with people and I'm just focusing on, you know, just Griffin. And just, I'm so proud of him. He He is amazing. And he, he I feel like could really tell a story someday, too. He's really good. At like, communicating with people, what like the nurse, I've had the nurse the principal, I've had numerous people like at school tell me like your son's really good at like communication. Like he's really good at like, at telling us what needs to happen like with his blood sugar with his with his diabetes or his care or how he's feeling right. And I don't know, I hope that like Navy seeing me kind of do that

Unknown Speaker 1:09:40
a little bit. Maybe. Hopefully we're off a little bit. Yeah. I don't know.

Scott Benner 1:09:46
That's a great skill to have. Just being able to articulate yourself and not being afraid to say it too.

Katy 1:09:52
Yeah, the big one like in front of his class and stuff. I started from kindergarten like I went up in front of his class and just Hey like, I am Griffin's mom, everyone knows me Griffin's mom, you know, you're gonna see me pop in and out. You know, it's Griffin's got little gadgets, he calls them his robot arms. I felt like if you just get it out of the way, like, it's like, it takes the tension out of

Scott Benner 1:10:19
it. That's how I did it for the first couple years when she was little, would basically show up on the first day. And just real quick, tell the kids this is Arden. Art, and she's like you, Arden does this thing on her gives her insulin, you know, she might leave the room once in a while, or go to the nurse's office to do some stuff, and then she'll be back. She's okay. You don't need to do anything. Don't worry, it's not scary, you know, she whipped out her thing and check her blood sugar in front of everybody right away first day, like every once in a while you're gonna see her do this. She did that. There's no big deal there, nothing to worry about. It's all very normal. And then it just became what you set. You know, you got what you expected. You know, you let you lay those expectations out for those kids. And they just, they followed right along with it. So I didn't do it for I mean, trying to think I don't think I did it much past third grade maybe. And then she would just do it herself. The first couple years, that and then it just fell by the wayside. And everybody just knew at that point, it didn't matter.

Katy 1:11:16
Yeah, I really noticed that when I kind of took the lead with that Griffin kind of just fell right into that and was more like, just proud and like, Hey, this is who I am. Like, this is what I you know, he's very much just like, This is what it is. Yeah. And I think that that confidence is so important. And I think he's, he's very lucky to have that competence, because I just know that, like, not everyone has that. And, you know, I've seen people with, with conditions where it's a lot more private and not talked about, and that can be really difficult to hold it all inside, you know,

Scott Benner 1:12:07
yeah, I don't think we should be hiding anything. I don't think people should be forcing us to hide anything. So I'm down with that very much. So, hey, I'm so sorry. Okay, like, I'm gonna run out of time, just because I have to go out with my wife this afternoon and do some like adult things. But I want to make sure that we've gotten to everything that you wanted to, I don't want to, I don't want to leave you feeling incomplete.

Katy 1:12:32
Totally. Um, I think just the main thing for me, is just anybody listening to this, if you're a new parent on the scene, or maybe you're a sibling of maybe you know, maybe your brother son just got type one or maybe your daughter in law or your son in law, whatever it might be. Do some research, like don't be afraid to do your research, maybe read up on it read up on how you can help what you can do. Be active in the in the kid's life, the kid that has t one be active in their life, like don't don't go away and stay away. I've seen family members do that where they they kind of just really back off and I don't know if it's because they're, you know, uncomfortable with it or maybe they're scared of it themselves. But be around the family you know and and just learn what you can and be helpful and and talk about it it's okay to talk about it doesn't need to be this secret you know, thing that you know people don't don't talk about and my Instagram handle is Griffes mama one anybody if they want to go on there and check out my page i don't i i somewhat post about type one but also just my life and my hiking adventures and my just all the things I do for fun and

Scott Benner 1:14:17
spell the Instagram handle GRIFFFSMA M

Katy 1:14:25
A one

Scott Benner 1:14:28
I see a there's another Griffes mom I got there before you

Katy 1:14:33
Griffes mama one at Yeah. I almost said at AOL sorry.

Scott Benner 1:14:39
aol.com And it's 1982 and I want to see the Superman movie with Chris Reeves tonight Oh, look how handsome excellent

Katy 1:14:50
my kids think I'm so old because I was from the 19 hundred's Yeah.

Scott Benner 1:14:54
Oh, you are old so am I but that's not the point. These kids they don't know. They'll know later. We know they get older and the stories they have to tell are about Dua Lipa, then they'll be embarrassed. At least hear stories about the Rolling Stones or the Beatles or guns.

Katy 1:15:10
I love it. Love it. Love all the good music. I am lucky though, in the sense my kids really like all that music a lot.

Scott Benner 1:15:18
I'm glad Mike, my kids have pretty eclectic taste in music. And I've always been happy about that. Just because, right?

Katy 1:15:25
I feel like that's like such a. It's almost like, I'm, I'm really proud of that, that my kids like good music, they don't listen to this, you know, they're not listening to the crappy music, they like the good stuff.

Scott Benner 1:15:39
Turn that off. That horrible, I do my best to listen to what they listen to and try to keep up with it. My son makes it a little harder than Arden does. But I still I've still heard modern music that Cole likes that I've enjoyed a lot. But for sure, but overall, I'm just telling you 50 years from now, you're still gonna know who the Beatles are. And if you'll know who little NAS x is. I'll be really surprised that that's all right, but I won't wait 50 years more, so it's not going to matter. Anyway. It's all just things I say to fill time. Katie was that's all I do. All right, Katie with a Y, I gotta jump. I don't know what to call this one. I'll figure it out. Now, I'll figure it out. It'll be fine. Unless you think of something. My problem is I just put up an episode called a ball of anxiety. So

Katy 1:16:38
I'm sure you'll think of some of that.

Scott Benner 1:16:40
It'll come to me and ambition. I really do appreciate your time. Thank you very much for doing this. Of

Katy 1:16:46
course, I was so happy to come on. In Yeah, just such a pleasure. Thank you so much.

Scott Benner 1:16:53
I'm glad. Alright, first, let's thank the good people at contour next one.com forward slash juice box. That's right Contour. Next One, go get yourself an accurate meter at contour next.com forward slash juice box. Also want to thank Ian pen from Medtronic diabetes for sponsoring this episode, and remind you to go to in pen today.com To get started right now with that insulin pen that has some of the features that you've come to expect from an insulin pump in Penn today.com. Lastly, I'd like to thank Katie for coming on the show and sharing her story. thought she was terrific. And I hope you enjoyed it. Thank you so much for listening. I'll be back very soon with another episode of The Juicebox Podcast. If you're looking for community around diabetes, you really should check out the absolutely free Facebook group for the Juicebox Podcast Juicebox Podcast type one diabetes on Facebook. It's a private group, which just means that you're gonna have to answer a couple of small questions to get in. Just you know what kind of diabetes you have stuff like that. And then you're in with 30,000 other people having conversations right now that I'm sure you would be interested in Juicebox Podcast type one diabetes on Facebook. If you're looking for the diabetes Pro Tip series, they're available beginning of Episode 210. In your podcast player, there's a list available in the feature tab of the Juicebox Podcast private Facebook group, or you can find them at diabetes pro tip.com and juicebox podcast.com