I am getting better at not crying

Last night Arden’s OmniPod and DexCom changes coincided with shower time. I thought that it would be nice for her to be device free for a little while so I bolused to make up for an hour’s worth of basal and removed the pod. Then I removed the CGM sensor (it was only working sporadically at this point anyway - on day 10), used the magic Uni-Solve to de-stickystuff Arden and she was off to the shower.

I had both kids going in different bathrooms so I was wandering back and forth between them, you know to keep things moving, “how’s it going in there?, wash your hair yet?”. Sometimes I think that if I didn’t do that the showers would last an entire day. Anyway, at one point when I went back to Arden this happened...

It’s important to the story that you know that the shower Arden was using is an open shower, thusly I can see her when I walk into the room. Big shower, little tiny girl - she looks adorable in there, all grown up and at the same time just a baby. So, I come back into he room and she says, “Daddy look!”. She turns to show me no CGM sensor, then spins to show me that she isn’t wearing an OmniPod and says, “No sensor, no pod, I look..........”

In that split second I thought to myself, “don’t say normal, please don’t say normal”

“I look......... like you in here” and with that she gives me a BIG smile and goes back to washing her hair.... and I didn’t cry, welled-up a bit but no visible tears, not even when I walked out. 

I could go on about how unfair it is that she has these issues but really, what’s the point? She does and she’s handling them with aplomb.