Two years ago Arden was diagnosed with type I diabetes while we were on a family vacation in Virginia Beach, VA. Approximately ten thousand shots ago our lives were changed in a way that I still haven’t found the words to properly convey.
Through happenstance our family invited us to another Virginia Beach vacation this year. So I am writing to you tonight from there. When we drove into town today I got filled up and had to stop myself from reliving those moments from 2006 that now define our lives. As we drove down the same street that I raced down franticly searching for a twenty-four hour pharmacy that night, I was overwhelmed by how far we’ve come, how far we still have to go but mostly by how sad I still am that Arden has this disease. I guess that is never going to go away.
A few hours ago, just as we did the last time we were here, we went food shopping to supply the house. I remembered going into that store two years ago so excited about the week to come. Today I had to fight off a piercing feeling of dread and impending doom. I couldn’t help feeling like something horrible was going to happen tomorrow. I don’t think that it’s a very good idea to be here today.
Tomorrow I think I’ll go with Arden to the last place in the world that I remember her not being diabetic. Kelly and I took her for a walk at a nature reserve a few hours before we figured out that she was sick. We watched the sun set together... It’s the image I picture in my head every time I say, “Arden’s Day”.
Tomorrow I’ll take her back and take a new photo of her to replace the one in my mind. She was so sick that day, so skinny and lifeless. Wearing a little green knit sweater that I’ve never been able to bring myself to put back on her. I think it’s time to replace that memory with a new one. I’ll post those new pictures as soon as I can.
Thank you to all of you that read this, you’ve made the last two years a bit easier.
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